Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Do You Have The Guts?
“Therein lies the rub.” I can’t remember the movie I heard that from—maybe the Untouchables with Kevin Cosner—maybe not. Anyway, I’m going somewhere with this, I promise. You see, after five years of writing, rewriting, and agonizing over my manuscript, BLOOD BIAS is only weeks away from being available to the masses. Now don’t get me wrong, I fully understand that my obscurity as a writer may hinder a drove of wild, crazy groupie fans from beating down my door to get a copy, but the thing is, an actual stranger—someone I am not related to, who isn’t a friend, or an acquaintance I’ve met through casual conversation—may actual read my book. So therein lies the rub. In other words, on one hand I am happy to be finally seeing my book in print (digital and actual paper), on the other hand, I’m nervous about it. The truth is, I have to prepare myself for possible criticism. I think the correct word here is probable. It will come from someone.
Writers tend to be their own worst critics, but we also have to be our own biggest cheerleaders (It’s not a pretty sight to see me in a skirt and chest hugging sweater—trust me). If that image disturbed your appetite, I’m sorry. I’ll try not to do it again. Anyway, I’ve had to convince myself that I wrote a very good book—if I can’t do that, I’ll never succeed in this business. And so I am convinced, but what will others think. There’s an old saying—“Never trust what your mother says about your writing”. I don’t trust anyone I know to tell me the truth. Will anyone have the guts to tell me my book “Bites the Big One” other than a total stranger? But the truth is, that’s what I want. Whether family or friend, acquaintance or Maytag repairman, I want the truth. How will I become better without the truth? I’ve been shunned by so many agents and publishers that I can’t imagine it could be worse. So if I had one wish over the next several months, it would be for my readers to give it to me straight, no anesthetic, just straight up with a shot of bourbon on the side.
Will you have the guts? By the way, anyone know the movie my quote came from?